That'll be the day...

So I hit somebody on my bike for the first time today. It's been a long time coming, honestly sometimes I think these people are trying to get hit. This guy, for example, saw me coming as he was crossing the street, then looked away. I rang my sweet bike bell at him, and he then did sort of a double take, and then at the last second he jumps INTO my path. I kind of shouldered him, his drink went flying, and he sort of in panic and in his startled state yelled something along the lines of "Oh man sorry I'm an idiot."

At some point along the way my short fuse was lit, and I was unable to extinguish it in time. Rather than ask him if we was ok, or apologize for crashing into him, I told him in a very angry and sarcastic tone "Just make sure you look before you cross the street," and then I guess I didn't feel satisfied enough with that OH so witty reply, so I added on a "You f***in' idiot." Classy.

Now I come to what I learned today. I learned that I am not always the loving person I wish I could be (not exactly breaking news). I could have reacted in so many better ways; I could have at least apologized for the accident (regardless of who was at fault), or I could have made sure he wasn't hurt, or I could have said "it's fine, it happens" but instead I publicly mocked him for making a mistake (of which we are all guilty) and then I insulted him with a 4th grade level insult.

The point I'm trying to make here is that my reaction was the opposite of what I would like it to be. That needs to change. And what I can't stop thinking about is what the world would be like if everybody (including myself) was slow to anger. Rather than seeking "justice" for being wronged, if everyone had forgiveness as their predisposition...

That'll be the day.

ACfreakingF

Something has changed in ACF. It's like the church has come alive. I really have never experienced anything like this to this point in my life... at the very least I haven't been able to fully grasp what is happening the way that I am right now.

I do not know the specific cause for this. ACF just gets it all of a sudden. It's like everything has been made new.

The worship of the church as a whole is just real, there's no other word for it. I see new faces everywhere, and to be honest it is amazing. Last year we just didn't have a lot of newcomers, and it was discouraging to me. Now it's the complete opposite- I'm so totally encouraged by how many new people we have, I'm just worried I won't have time to meet them all! I say all of this even before small groups have been formed, before we've even really had a discussion. God is moving in ACF, and I for one cannot wait for what is in store. I am a little sad that I'm leaving in the spring.



Jesus, I pray that you keep your hand over ACF, especially on the leadership. A fellowship can only go as far as the belonging men and women are willing to take it; give us the desire to do great things. Move our lives and the lives of others through us.